Half-Lie

It wasn't the fact that you lied

lying is a common enough trait among humans

Nor was it the fact that I felt wanted

The fact that it was you and not me is inconsequential

What causes me pain is the fact that I knew

I always knew, from the very start

I saw you with her

Walking, talking

and wanted it to be me

So I tried, hard

and it worked

but she was still there

and the worst part was I wanted her to stay

she made me laugh and talk

and you wouldn't talk to me, only her

so some part of me, the sensible part, knew

knew that it would end

I laughed when it ended

I had been beaten to the punch

But it still hurts

Not because of you

but because I refused to accept

what had been right before me

I wish there was a villain

But c'est la vie

and not a sordid fairy tale

We are human

And soon

when I say 'I'm fine'

It'll be the truth

and not a half-lie